Hello curious person
I think this blog post is an accurate representation of why I signed myself onto this course. I've started this post around six times, I never managed to figure out what I'm trying to say and I have plenty of awesome ideas that just feel clunky when I'm expressing them.
So I'm stepping away from perfectionism and into reality! I started this course, very selfishly, because I feel constantly frazzled. This frazzled becomes disorganised with a stop at tired somewhere in the middle. I don't like being disorganised as I feel like I'm always chasing my tail to get everything done. Eventually, it feels like my life is shifts gear into survival mode and I get stuck in a place where to make a change would deplete my already waning supply of energy and to stop all together feels like an emergency brake without a seat belt on.
Now you have a little background, let me talk more about this course I'm studying. It's called SATYA (sensory/somatic awareness training for yoga attunement). I was first introduced to this through my teacher (thank you, Alex) where an interest, to my surprise, laid dormant for many years. Well, when I finally opened my eyes and realised the cycle needed to be broken, I knew what I could do. This type of practice had to be the answer. I must admit that signing onto a teacher training course probably wasn't the wisest move, but it felt right. Sure enough, my instincts guided me well because this course is majorly practise driven which is what I need right now.
SATYA is mostly grounded (see video). Laying on your back, side or front. Rather than a mat, we use a large blanket so we can slip and slide in and out of these movements. This approach feels like the antidote to my current state because the effort is (on the most part) minimal but I get a chance to keep moving. It’s a happy medium where I get to ease into stillness rather than hitting that emergency brake I mentioned earlier. I reached a point last week where it felt like I moved myself to sleep. Towards the end of the practice, I don’t think I was actually moving anymore, I just thought I was. It’s just what I needed to unwind.
I can’t tell you everything about this practice yet (I still have SATYA 2 and SATYA 3 to complete for that) but I am seeing the positive impact. What are some of my experiences so far, besides rest? I’m tuned into my body, I get to explore the wealth of sensation happening inside (I don’t even have words for some of the sensations) and I’m using something deeper than the surface muscles to navigate these movements. I also love that I can overlay a lot of the neuroscience stuff I’ve learnt over the past 12 months. Once I feel confident with this, I’m going to revisit my neuroscience content because I feel like I have two boxes of pieces to the same puzzle. I just need to sit down and connect the pieces.
I know I’ve already mentioned this course to quite a few of you… I’m excitable when I learn particularly when I feel like it can help people or compliment one of my offerings (Yoga Nidra, for example). I love to return to the role of a learner. It keeps my feet on the ground. It reminds me of those feelings that stir within when you start something new. It inspires me.
I look forward to sharing more of this with you. 2024 feels like it has been a collectively tough experience. I’m sure as some of you were reading this, you could connect with my personal share about how I’m feeling right now. I work with a lot of people and “busy”, “tired” and “exhausted” come up a lot when I’m checking in. This is why I was drawn to the practice, and this is why I know I will ultimately be drawn to sharing it. It’s a practice where you can move into rest, using your breath (just like you would in a flow) whilst preserving some of your energy within to allow it to recuperate.
You’re awesome
Sam
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